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I am back!

After having been gone for so long (again) and disappearing without a word (again) I am (again) so very sorry

Long story short due to illness, family issues, finally breaking down with stress for real (again), reappearing depression (again), being diagnosed with yet another illness to top it off with those I have already. Having a mental breakdown, literally, to the point I stopped being able to care for myself. Unable to get out of bed and all that follows. I had reached a point where I could no longer cope with the world, be it irl or online. I did not have the mental capacity for even tiniest things.

Its been a couple of years (very roughly). I am now in the process of recovering thanks to social worker and a home care(?) helper I had assigned to me. Lastly whom still visits me once a week. Now not so much to help, but more to just check on me and talk.

Its not that I haven't been online all this while. But I had to pick my priorities. Paying attention to an art site wasn't one of them before now, beside part from a couple of sketches and line-works I haven't been drawing anything full, with only one exception.

I might not become fully active here just yet, but I will be here to lurk, fave some art here and there and upload the sketches and line-works I've been doing. Which also brings me to one last thing. All the dA groups that I own. I will have to let some of them go. I wont delete them but I will transfer ownership to someone else. I will make a post about it in the selected groups and see if a moderator or member already there might want to take over. Some I will leave for real, but at least one I would like to stay as a moderator and still show my support that way.
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Not all is bad of course. There have been good things happening too. For a starter my daughter was accepted in to a private boarding school, a thing that was her dream but that me or my mom could not afford, but due to circumstances she got a free spot. This will also help her to get a much needed long time, long distance away from her dad whom is still a thorn in her life. I got myself a rescue cat. Been wanting a cat or a dog for a very long time. Ended up being a cat. Big 5 kilo blotched tabby tom that I named Emil, a name that fits him surprisingly well and a few weeks back I started to volunteer as a moderator in a Discord gaming group (Filthy Casuals) which is keeping me semi busy but with a schedule that fits me. And its focus is a main hobby of mine, gaming helps me force myself to be social also outside my own comfort zone sometimes, and with a recent art competition within the group, encouraged me to draw and actually finish a drawing

Okay, maybe that wasn't such a short “long story short” ramble. But looking forward to chat with some of you guys again a lot of you I have bee missing a lot.